Today I had another giant disaproval of corporate life. I must make it my undying internally lit fire to not accept wasted time or wrongful effort as time is running out for me to find another path in life.
Today I had a relatively productive day at work which included finishing my draft presentation, getting the billing resolved, doing DR, and reaching out to leads. I also had a great dinner after work along with productive evening as I realized how excited I am to be back and school and to be a TA. It seems that when I am on top of everything in my life, especially the parts that people count on me for, I feel the most accomplished and successful. Very interesting. Also heard from a boeing recruiter, completing something for donna. Reminders for tomorrow are to speak as little as possible and to find the answers to my questions. I will also practice practice practice my presentation until I know it like the back of my hand and come away with a great understanding there. I am greatful for my friends, family, and body. How lucky I am, and how far I will go. Form now on consistent focus each day on what it'll look like in the future.
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Have not been acting in a way that would have me be the abnormal. I had a great time with great friends however I spent money I did not need to spend, smoked cigarettes, and did not maintain personal achievement goals. Although I failed, if it was easy to stick to these goals of personal achievement, everyone would do it. It is an ongoing path towards greatness in which each week must be better than the last.
Goals for this week. 1. To maintain fitness by lifting Tuesday/Thursday and running Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Also to start at 120 abs/arms every day increasing by 10 each day. 2. To successfully complete all projects or project milestones and network with one Boeing employee each day. 3. To begin market research on Management. Pull 3 articles a day or write a script to. 4. To read 20 pages out of my book each day. 5. To finish setting up budget/investment plan for future. Right now I want to be able to just travel up and down the coast of Australia in a van with someone who I love dearly experiencing everything. Today I had a nice relaxing start to my day. Got into work and prepped enough to be ready for two spectacular meetings. I should never leave things until the last minute though. If there had been a mistake I would have missed an opportunity to impress. In the first one I realized that you really get what you go after and maybe why so many people sit around waiting to move up is because there are those pushing passed them by taking on more work.
I absolutely would not take a job here. I would not be happy. My next step needs to be somewhere new. Got on with my projects, John told me I am doing great work which meant a lot. Realized how much tech is just understanding the mindset of how things communicate. No one really is an expert on the whole thing. Just parts, and they work together. Debbie told me she has been floating my resume which I think means she likes me. Was definitely prepared for todays meeting. Still talked too much without enough content. My default is on speak and it needs to just be on listen and think. Biggest ongoing change right now to be monitored over the next couple weeks. Got out of work early which felt good, came home and had a great run really loving the warm weather. Didn't do my regular pushups and sit ups which is a problem. Need to stay committed and make the choices to first accomplish my personal goals for the day before adding. There is time to still connect but need to prioritize. Kayla is coming over tomorrow for dinner so we will see how that goes. Proud of how different projects at work are going and how receptive co-workers are. Proud of hot fit I have stayed this week even with todays setback of pushups, sit-ups, and physical therapy. Will make sure to make up for this tomorrow. Today was tiresome. I got stressed with work. Co-worker said "its just work" and I realized how boring a life with "just work" must be. Got home and didn't follow my rules, my will power had shrunk or something. Realize thats something I need to work out so I can have a build up of testosterone. Also picked aggressively at my acne, we will see just how bad in the morning. Got Kayla to make dinner with me friday but not feeling all to confident in myself right now. Also when I speak I need to think about what I am saying, made myself look like a fool today. If its not necessary or doesn't provide entertainment for something then....dont say it. In fact new rule
Don't speak unless asked a question, am adding necessary information(changes an outcome without a doubt), or adding entertainment, then don't speak. I am doing well with working out. I am doing well with family. Tomorrow I will focus on my new rule, be less focused on those around me i.e.. social media and checking my phone. I will take deep breaths. A day full of odd emotions.
I overcame my thoughts of not going to the gym and went to the gym. Therefore I took one more step towards the optimal me. Tomorrow morning I will do the same. I had someone honk at me on the way to work and contemplated what the emotions of that other driver must have been and what that meant to me. I arrived at work and began my day of productivity in which I made great contacts, knocked out a lot of my long term assignment, still felt awkward with the interns but I don't think its a problem. I'm realizing I need to be more focused on what I'm doing and less of what others think I am doing or who I am(nothing new of course). I also found background piano music to be a great way to have a way to get the help of a rhythm without clouding out my thoughts. Mckayla came up on my mind as usual and I thought how great it would be to have a fantastic falling out with her where I tell her how much she fucked over something that has probably meant more to me than......well everything. I then revert back to the realistic view of which incorporates the fact that she isn't the same person and that she's doing a ton of drugs and not going to be a stellar, all-inclusive CEO, human being that I need in my life to pull me further up. I went on with the day and felt clarity, and the appreciation of others. Very thankful for Kate's stretch assignment and networking today. In one year I wish to have more to look back on in terms of giving back to the communities that have allowed me to thrive, I hope to have someone who I have something very special with even if only for a bit but also remain mature in my drive and actions, I wish to be soundly invested for a few thousand dollars, on my way back to Australia to begin a new life in a position I actually enjoy. I can look back on my most successful year yet in terms of personal and physical growth. I want to have another triathlon under my belt, have been a great TA with the personal recommendation of Donna Wertalik. I hope to strengthen my closest friendships through thoughtlessness. I want people to think of being friends with me as being one of the best things in the world. I want to inspire those who come after me to become better versions of themselves. I want to be able to jam on the Ukulele and be half fluent in another language, such as Mandarin. In 3 years I want to have a million dollars. I want to have articles written about me for bringing a new twist to a very old art or concept. I want to be surrounded by people that are totally loyal and I loyal to them. I want to still be physically active and have great relationships with everyone in my family. I see myself as listening more than talking, I want to have spent more time traveling and coming away with new understandings of the world around me. I want to be looking to own by grandparents farm in Australia. In 10 years I want to be absolutely in love with someone who I wake up with every morning and am just amazed by. I want to comfortably have a few million dollars, a son and a daughter living in Australia. I wish to be able to spend most of my time traveling, consulting groups around the world. I wish to be a human oriented CEO that really invests in his people. I want to be able to take care of my parents and help them to live an absolutely amazing retirement....I want this more than anything! I know its not going to be Mckalya who I am married to because its going to be someone even more special and driven. I want to be changing the way the world does something. From an unexpected place come some of the most valuable wisdom I have ever happened across. Out of all places....a book on attractive women. In this book it speaks of 3 things in which one becomes and is perceived for who they are. First, however, a recap of the day.
Today I cooked a great and healthy protein filled breakfast, drove to NG headquarters to meet with the other interns. I believe I am different from the other interns as I seem to not be fitting in quite as well as I expected at a professional setting. I explored the campus and obtained the contact information of a few important figures who I will email first thing tomorrow. I realized how fantastic of a lady Kim is. I realized how much my thoughts seem to revolve around the concept that I would be utterly and completely unhappy sitting in a cubicle staring at a computer screen as I am doing now. The thought came to me that there are smarter, harder working, more connected people out there who want exactly what I want. What a trivial thought but first time it has become physically real. And this is also what has inspired this post. My desire to become the best version of myself due to the only way I might ever be content and the optimism I have for knowing it is possible. ON with the day....Drove back to Richmond, realizing how much of an aggressive driver I can be, which is not good in this new very unstable car. Ran, another thought on the above three, ate chipotle, began a budget and wrote this. Okay so onto the 3. How you treat others, how others treat you, and how you treat yourself. I have begun to make this the cornerstone of who I am and will expand on this in everything I do now. Rules I set for myself: I will do physical therapy and take iron daily as I am supposed to. I will maintain my daily workouts along with added abs and pushups incrementing by 5 each day. I will not have sex with women on the first date. I will stay money conscious and stick to the budget currently in progress. I will set aside 5 minutes every day to meditate as a priority. I will read 20 pages of my book every day. I will reach out to one boeing employee each day. I will spend 3 minutes imagining myself in 1 year, 3 years, and 5 years. I will never smoke a cigarette again because I care about myself more than that. I will contact childrens museum or some volunteer work by the end of the week. This will be an ongoing post but this is what I have for now. I am not going to the gym, not volunteering, not practicing music, not reading, not networking, not learning any languages ect. I am wasting a lot of time on my phone. When I get home I seem to be too tired to do anything.
If I'm going to be a different person from those around me, I need to step up my focus and end-game mentality. I envision myself as a calm and collected gentlemen who knows his breath.
-Learn entry level french through DUO lingo by spending 20 minutes each day on it -Read 3 books on anything -Excel at my internship by walking away at the end with many people willing to write recommendations -Constantly be networking at work by getting two new contacts each week -Reach out to two in-industry Australians each week on Linked-in -Mediatate each day for at least 10 minutes -Maintain workout schedule, you already know -Have good spending habits by utilizing mint appropriately -Go out of my way to have a genuine conversation with everyone at a party to network -Maintain good contact with parents. Weekly phone calls. -Get along with roommate by going the extra mile to take out trash, stay clean, be quiet, ect. -Not pick acne at all! No mirror in room, busy schedule, visiting places. -Visit 3 new locations in Richmond each week. Nature, Museum ect. Living in a new place. About to start a new job. Making new friends. New roommate. New approach with girls. New habits. I get to make this as i wish. I must take the time to create goals and plans for the habits that will serve me most. I must find me places.
I am enjoying just experiencing and I need to remember that is why I am here. To just take it all in. So whenever I begin to feel overwhelmed I simply need to take a break and take it all in. Find my breath and release it on purpose. A few points to touch on.
I will see if my parents want to invest 2000 in Ethereum, as the summer goes by I will put 4000 of my own money in it. I realize I should have been a psychologist with my interests and know I must focus on understanding and learning about people and decisions. I must read up on this. A tablet that works as a photo album, marketed as a photo album. Today I ran 5 miles, and read half a book. |
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July 2017
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