Lessons learned all around today:
Think before you speak as you told your manager you had put in enough hours this week. Don't get so tunnelvisioned on something that you miss out on things you should be doing, also applicable to life Don't ever betray your friends like that. This was huge and almost cost you one of the most meaningful relationships you have. Think about how it might affect them before you do something dude. Don send drunk emails as errors will most definitely occur. The only mistake is one you don't learn from. I also had a fantastic workout today, am realizing that who I am is a very calm, relatable human who makes people feel good and keeps his sarcastic jokes to himself. I really enjoyed being this person today. Also low key love programming. Madeline brought up some valid points and san bernadino would be a sick place to live.
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I am enjoying coding immensely, the technical part of my brain seems to have clicked on.
I want you to remember that old man driving us smoking cigarettes and coughing up his lung. Rule: You will not smoke a cig unless it is after sex with a girl. I had a victory today with staying busy and so therefore stuck to my goals and ambitions it terms of not jacking off. Only once a week to accompany a build up in testosterone. That girl cancelled on me and it didn't matter at all, I went and improved myself instead and that was fantastic. I reached out to multiple australian NG employees about jobs. Starting salary of 66,000 I guess thats a lot and I should be happy about it but I want to hang out with my pals, the ones who took different paths. I want to observe them. Going to the bakehouse this weekend and I see it as a great time to relax and just enjoy the subtleness of good people and a fantastic environment. Had a lot of thoughts about how well I could treat someone. Really quite into this idea of making someone who is beautiful on the outside and in just feel so okay with themselves that they are amazed by me on a daily basis. Ive seen this look before in someones eyes and I want it again. I will have $40,000,000 by the time I am 30 by keeping my mind open, knowing I can inspire a team around me as my greatest strength, and by continuously experiencing new things and improving myself. Flexed my critical thinking muscles. Quite happy in the work ethic I showed today along with the positive habits I maintained other than that. Maybe a new personal revolution coming.
Did not treat my body well last night. Felt rejection in a humiliating way by someone who was obviously a horrible human being.
ON another note lots of girls were making out last night which was entertaining. Met this dude named DP who started of with my interest and and lost me because I realized that he was not real. I feel as if I must be the same way to an extent as I say a lot and don't back it up. I think I am still widely unsure of who I am and yet I think that it because I am not doing something that accounts for my dreams. I obviously woke up depressed this morning as I laid in bed for much longer than I usually do. On day 11 I received a job offer for 67,000 from NG upon graduation, went out to dinner with one of my bosses, and got drunk to deal with it. Time was taken. Moving on.
I have less then 365 days (calculations coming soon) to alter my path drastically towards a life that I will enjoy living. It's clear sitting in a cubicle is not my future as it would be such a waste. I have no intention of taking this job offer but I have to earn another path through habits, getting out of my comfort zone, and constantly being cognoscente of the bigger picture. Today was not much to report on other than waking up, going to work leaving early coming home and resting. I then continued on two great habits such as weekly workout and this. Its time to take advantage of being independent, personable, and the time that I have right now to do something great by my own standards. Setting some good habits with a drive to continue them. Had a rough night last night due to how I treated my roommate over the whole mouse thing, I can never treat anyone that way. The mature way to have gone about that would have been to talk to her the next day once I had calmed down. You should never lose your cool.
Had a fantastic day at work after making it to the gym and got a great compliment that I am the second best speaker of the interns which I will solidify tomorrow because of how well I know my subject matter and because Ive practiced more than anyone. Got home and still worked out again which was great up to 140 push ups and reverse curls. I will have abs by the end of the summer. Tomorrow I need to look into my goals again and make sure I am on the right path. I am extremely exited to present tomorrow as what my life has in store I will need to be great at public speaking and connecting with a crowd, what a perfect opportunity to embrace abnormality and being outside my comfort zone. I am thankful for my lineage, for my suits and shoes, I am thankful for my jeep. Today I had another giant disaproval of corporate life. I must make it my undying internally lit fire to not accept wasted time or wrongful effort as time is running out for me to find another path in life.
Today I had a relatively productive day at work which included finishing my draft presentation, getting the billing resolved, doing DR, and reaching out to leads. I also had a great dinner after work along with productive evening as I realized how excited I am to be back and school and to be a TA. It seems that when I am on top of everything in my life, especially the parts that people count on me for, I feel the most accomplished and successful. Very interesting. Also heard from a boeing recruiter, completing something for donna. Reminders for tomorrow are to speak as little as possible and to find the answers to my questions. I will also practice practice practice my presentation until I know it like the back of my hand and come away with a great understanding there. I am greatful for my friends, family, and body. How lucky I am, and how far I will go. Form now on consistent focus each day on what it'll look like in the future. Have not been acting in a way that would have me be the abnormal. I had a great time with great friends however I spent money I did not need to spend, smoked cigarettes, and did not maintain personal achievement goals. Although I failed, if it was easy to stick to these goals of personal achievement, everyone would do it. It is an ongoing path towards greatness in which each week must be better than the last.
Goals for this week. 1. To maintain fitness by lifting Tuesday/Thursday and running Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Also to start at 120 abs/arms every day increasing by 10 each day. 2. To successfully complete all projects or project milestones and network with one Boeing employee each day. 3. To begin market research on Management. Pull 3 articles a day or write a script to. 4. To read 20 pages out of my book each day. 5. To finish setting up budget/investment plan for future. Right now I want to be able to just travel up and down the coast of Australia in a van with someone who I love dearly experiencing everything. Today I had a nice relaxing start to my day. Got into work and prepped enough to be ready for two spectacular meetings. I should never leave things until the last minute though. If there had been a mistake I would have missed an opportunity to impress. In the first one I realized that you really get what you go after and maybe why so many people sit around waiting to move up is because there are those pushing passed them by taking on more work.
I absolutely would not take a job here. I would not be happy. My next step needs to be somewhere new. Got on with my projects, John told me I am doing great work which meant a lot. Realized how much tech is just understanding the mindset of how things communicate. No one really is an expert on the whole thing. Just parts, and they work together. Debbie told me she has been floating my resume which I think means she likes me. Was definitely prepared for todays meeting. Still talked too much without enough content. My default is on speak and it needs to just be on listen and think. Biggest ongoing change right now to be monitored over the next couple weeks. Got out of work early which felt good, came home and had a great run really loving the warm weather. Didn't do my regular pushups and sit ups which is a problem. Need to stay committed and make the choices to first accomplish my personal goals for the day before adding. There is time to still connect but need to prioritize. Kayla is coming over tomorrow for dinner so we will see how that goes. Proud of how different projects at work are going and how receptive co-workers are. Proud of hot fit I have stayed this week even with todays setback of pushups, sit-ups, and physical therapy. Will make sure to make up for this tomorrow. Today was tiresome. I got stressed with work. Co-worker said "its just work" and I realized how boring a life with "just work" must be. Got home and didn't follow my rules, my will power had shrunk or something. Realize thats something I need to work out so I can have a build up of testosterone. Also picked aggressively at my acne, we will see just how bad in the morning. Got Kayla to make dinner with me friday but not feeling all to confident in myself right now. Also when I speak I need to think about what I am saying, made myself look like a fool today. If its not necessary or doesn't provide entertainment for something then....dont say it. In fact new rule
Don't speak unless asked a question, am adding necessary information(changes an outcome without a doubt), or adding entertainment, then don't speak. I am doing well with working out. I am doing well with family. Tomorrow I will focus on my new rule, be less focused on those around me i.e.. social media and checking my phone. I will take deep breaths. |
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